New jellies arrived yesterday ♡ I love them so much!
I couldn’t find the pink in my size anywhere. So jealous.
Silence is truly terrifying. Not knowing what’s coming next is usually worse than what is actually to come.
I always worry that I’m not interesting because I never know what to say, but still the time seems to pass so quickly whenever I’m spending it with you. I worry people might find me boring or annoying because when I’m not ranting about something I don’t have much to say at all, but it stems from my fear of upsetting people by accidentally saying the wrong thing so I learned not to speak or think for myself and now I don’t know what’s worse. I never know which version of myself to present, and I’ve had to come up with so many in my efforts to please everybody that I’ve forgotten which version of me is real. Or perhaps I’ve lost it completely and just become this timid shell.
I’m starting to just accept the fact that the only thing I’m good at is putting myself down. When I try to think of my strengths I just come up with a long list of everything I’m not good at no matter how much time and effort I put into improving. I feel like I’ll never amount to anything. No matter how many times people tell me I’m good at something I always immediately think of ten people who are a thousand times better at that thing and come to the conclusion that no one would ever pick me over all those other people.
The dumbest thing about all of this is that it’s not even where my depression stems from… It’s just this thing constantly sitting in the back of my mind making me wonder why I even bother to try, and causing me to constantly force myself to do things even though I don’t feel like they will get me anywhere. OTL
boys can like pink and not be gay
girls can have short hair and not be a lesbian
boys can like ballet
girls can like video games
boys can be hot without a six pack
girls can be hot without a hairless body
boys can have hair down to their waists
girls can have stretch marks, curves and back fat
gender doesn’t determine what you can and cannot enjoy, what you can and cannot look like or what you can and cannot do